I was sitting upright in bed at 5 a.m. one day, reading the book of Genesis, when something stood out from 1:14-15, (NKJV, The Study Bible for Women, Holman Bible Publishers).
“Then God said, ‘Let there be lights in the firmament of the heavens to divide the day from the night; and let them be for signs and seasons, and for days and years; and let them be for lights in the firmament of the heavens to give light on the earth,’ and it was so.”
“Signs and seasons.”
I had recently prayed over a bunch of little things in my life, asking God for a sign.
Finally, I tore up two pieces of paper and threw them in my Bible bag, one with the word “yes” written on it, and one with the word “no.”
These were not decisions that involved or affected anyone else.
So I drew out the papers for each item I was praying over that morning.
And took note, of course.
After making my list, I came upon these verses in Genesis.
And I realized that at the beginning of creation, God planned for the Star of Bethlehem which would shine brightly, proclaiming the birth of the Holy Messiah, Jesus.
It takes stars light years to get to the point they are seen by us on earth.
Being that all of creation was made and continues to birth other things, such as stars, we do not know if the Star of Bethlehem was created at the beginning of time or if it was born, because of the creative processes God put in place, years or centuries later.
All we know is He planned in the beginning for that “Sign.”
There are also scriptures which condemn seeking a “sign” from the Lord, as if to verify that God is real.
And there are scriptures where simple beings like myself inquired of God for a sign.(Gideon’s fleece.)
I looked at my black Bible bag and then did some additional study online.
There is one big problem with the yes or no system, a paper drawing if you will, hemming God in to two choices.
He gave us a brain. A brain to decide. A brain to wrestle with life and make choices. A brain with a creative ability to think through an issue. Even every day simple issues like what will I have for lunch or what nail polish looks good on me?
Yes. A brain for all of it.
While it is noble to inquire of God for His guidance, He expects us to do our part.
So often we want to keep them from experiencing the negative consequences of their choices. We feed and bathe them, cuddle them, talk and read to them, teach them new things. Empower them, love them. You put all this energy into raising a child, who hopefully will be an even better model of you.
Hopefully they will learn from your mistakes.
The calls come in as they grow into adulthood. The first car crash. The flat tire. The hangover. The failed relationship. The feud with their friend. Love and money has disappeared. You want to fix it. Sometimes you can. If you have enough money, you can help them .. some.
Sooner or later, though, they have to wrestle with life just like you did.
Figure it out.
You have a brain. Use it.
A little Jewish mother I knew told me she once told her son, “I cannot put my head on your shoulders.”
Asked God to forgive the two pieces of paper in my Bible bag. Like I said, they were silly things to be addressing in such a way.
I was looking for a sign from God.
Wouldn’t that be nice? Sometimes He makes it clear what He wants you to do or how to approach whatever it is.
That is at the bottom of seeking a sign, occasionally.
Fear of failure. Fear that an idea will not work. Fear that the other shoe is going to drop. We end up encased in our fears, hemmed in by the seeming inability to make a decision.
How to master even teeny tiny choices you make?
Trial and error.
Figure it out.
If you make a decision and take tuna for lunch, and you discover tuna does not like you, well there. You cross it off your list and try something else.
May God be with you in the signs and seasons of your life.