A hot cup of coffee is my friend at this moment, as I am curled up in my room with my Bible, notebook, and other reading material before work.
It is fairly quiet outside. I work today, and am looking forward to being “in the field.” This is what journalists call it when they are out of the office.
You might remember that I started off the week decluttering.
Solitary exclamation point. I had so much energy and positivity that day, I was like, yes, spring is here!
The following day, not so much. It was more like I was a zombie character on an episode of The Walking Dead.
However, I did at least unclutter the inside of my car and hang a new air freshener.
Sometimes it is like that in our healing from past trauma. We make our way forward, only to wake up the next day .. and the only two words we can utter are, “Oh, God.”
And not in a way of taking His Name in vain.
Literally, not being able to find words to formulate what we seek in prayer.
So what does this mean?
Here’s the deal.
Sharing my story has not been easy. In fact, often after I either write, talk to someone else about their trauma as a kid, or read yet another account of a child’s life being wrecked by intimate abuse, I find I need to do something to counter balance those uncomfortable moments.
After all. We were not made for trauma.
Or were we?
It is true that you cannot go back and unscramble the egg.
We cannot fix our past. What we have seen, experienced, heard.
Listening to a positive video. A story of overcoming. And it might not even relate to your struggles.
In the words of another lady I know with a story like mine .. “I like to celebrate the accomplishments of others.”
Art. Walks in nature. Concerts. Time with family or friends.
Or just walking into a cozy coffee shop, alone, getting a sesame seed bagel and a cup of coffee, and reading a good book.
A public information officer for a law enforcement agency recently asked me how I deal with some of the very horrific arrest affidavits we
sometimes have to read before writing an article about someone who “allegedly” hurt a child. “Given what you have been through,” he said.
The media recently ran a press release about 26 sex offenders who were arrested for not keeping their info current with the state.
And I thought, if this release is true, and if it is true that all 26 of them really did commit offenses that convicted them .. in most of the cases, involving either children or someone else they “allegedly” compromised .. then that is 26 (at least) lives that were wrecked.
I told this person that I have and am continuing to work through my healing. I choose life, color, beauty, positivity, faith, hope, creativity, dwelling “on that which is good.”
And in answer to his question .. I take a very quick moment .. and read something positive.
Two minutes is all it takes to immediately refocus me. I have been doing this since I was 9 years old. I grant that not everyone is as able to refocus that quickly, and I am not critical of anyone who cannot.
But that is what I do.
Because I am not yesterday.
And yesterday is not me.
How is your healing journey going? Make a list of some creative things you can do to refocus when you are exposed to things that are less than positive.
Embrace the possibilities of overcoming.